i'm learning "meant to live" by switchfoot on guitar.

it's pretty sweet.



i need a hug.

forever - fireflight

Sometimes I feel so cold
Like I'm waiting around all by myself
Loneliness gets so old
I'm in the lost and found sitting on the shelf
Been stuck for way too long
But I hear Your voice
You're who I'm counting on

Oh, tell me You're here
That You will watch over me forever
Oh, take hold of my heart
Show me You'll love me forever

I know that You can tell
When I start to let my hope fade away
I need to catch myself
Open my ears to hear You calling my name
Been fighting way too long
But I hear Your voice
You had me all along

When I'm starting to drown
You jump in to save me
When my world's upside down
Your hands, they shake me and wake me

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I really need to buy Fireflight's cd's. They are an amazing band.

I talked a lot with my cousin today. it was good.. actually being able to rant to someone face-to-face. he can be kinda a jerk, but we share some of the same rants. so it was kinda cool. i honestly can't remember the last time i did that.. ranting out loud, to a real person. hah. it felt really good. even though it was just my cousin and i really didn't share all that much. =p
wrote a lot in my private journal last night.. stayed up till almost midnight doing it. that felt really good. it's really bad when i keep everything bottled up and don't let it out whatsoever.

i'm currently reading "through painted deserts" by donald miller again. it's a wonderful book... his not-so-serious one. it's the perfect example of what i really want to do after highschool.. at least for a month or two or something. i dunno. i love don's writing style.. he's so.. honest.

random: i love postsecret.

























cheesecake.

Me in 2011?

http://telstarlogistics.typepad.com/photos/uncategorized/2008/05/20/ev03_bob_westfalia.jpg

I hope. =D

'mental, ha, keyword!'

"cause i've been feeling so temperamental, and everybody's thinking 'mental, ha! keyword!'"

i pretty much fail at this whole life thing.

=p

on the sunshine side though, my mom did let me start taking lessons from the teacher i want to.. which is weird. because she was really against me taking lessons from him, 'cause he "looked" scary (he has a hxc, edgy type look). but last week she up and decided that i could take lessons from him.
but she is forcing me to take piano lessons again. which blows. =p

i should prolly put something meaningful in this blog. but i'm not going to.

Vlog #3

Alive - Superchic[k]

Don't bury me - I'm not yet dead
Don't bury me - I'm not yet dead

Don't bury me - I'm not yet dead
Not a walking zombie with no head
Not a stepford wife made to obey
Don't want to go through life that way

I'm alive, I'm alive, that's what I said
I'm alive, I'm alive, gonna live that way
I'm alive, I'm alive, that's what I said
I'm alive and I'm gonna live today

Do robots dream of electric sheep?
I need to live my dreams - not just in my sleep
I've been holed up here - but it's time to leave
I need to make my move while there's air to breathe
Don't give me drugs - no novacaine
I must be alive - 'cause I still feel pain

We were born with wings
We were made to fly
We were meant to live while we're still alive

I'm alive, I'm alive, that's what I said
I'm alive, I'm alive, gonna live that way
I'm alive, I'm alive, that's what I said
I'm alive and I'm gonna live today

I'm alive, I'm alive, that's what I said
I'm alive, I'm alive, gonna live that way
I'm alive, I'm alive, that's what I said
I'm alive and I'm gonna live today

I'm alive, I'm alive, that's what I said
I'm alive, I'm alive, gonna live that way
I'm alive, I'm alive, that's what I said
I'm alive and I'm gonna live today

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Off of the new record coming out at the end of June.
w00t!
I'm really excited. Superchic[k] has always been one of my favorite bands - they were the reason I got into music, and they were at the first concert I went to. And they're amazing. =D
Anyway... if you want, you can download the song at: http://inpop.com/superchicklovesyou

=]

Alive-ness is good.
I've been feeling alive more and more lately.
mostly, at least. i still have my depressive moments.
but.. yeah.
aliveness.. it's a wonderful feeling.
i'm not exactly sure why. i think i'm just tired of being depressed. it really drags on you after awhile.
it's not like it was a hxc, "i'm going to always be happy and definitly stick to this" choice or anything.. more like, a subconscious choice. a choice to actually start trying at life rather then giving up every chance i get.
which is good.
i've started exercising every day. which is something that i've needed to do for a long time. and it's amazing how good i feel afterwards. i feel very accomplished. hah.

yep.

ooh.. so I might be going to WarpedTour at the end of June! AHH! i'm uber excited. finally seeing Relient K live! =D
and seeing Anberlin, Family Force 5, Forever the Sickest Kids, Between the Trees, among a bunch of other amazing bands. Paramore isn't going to be at the date in Denver though.. =[
speaking of Paramore.. they *are* coming to Denver.. but on the same day as HeavenFest. which is a bummer. because I have to decide if I want to see one of my favorite bands ever (like, they're in my top three), or see a bunch of bands that I like (but aren't my favorites) at HeavenFest. I don't know yet.. because I've been really excited for HeavenFest, but seeing Paramore could quite possibly beat our HeavenFest.
*sigh*
I'm so indecisive. hah.


Ooh.. so I read this really good book recently.. it's called "Butterfly in Brazil". It's by some guy who works at New Life Church down in Colorado Springs. It's really good. You should read it. =D

i once was blind.. but now i see..

I just finished watching the movie "Amazing Grace".
One of the best movies I've ever seen.
It made me cry.. and made me think.

What if we all fought against injustice like William Wilberforce did? How much would this world change if we focused our energy on making this world a better place rather than putting us up higher on the ladder? What if we changed ourselves before trying to change others.. so that the change in us is seen, and others choose to change themselves because they can see that it can be done.
If everyone chose to change themselves - if everyone chose to become a better person and die to themselves everyday.. just imagine how much this world could change.

I want a life of change, more than anything.

"i want to see miracles.. to see the world change.."