Believe In Dreams

"I know, the days will come and go,
But baby I'll grow old, but I will die.
For now, is it worth it to be sad,
If it's harder to be glad to be alive?

For the trouble I have caused I wonder,
Where do I belong?
Is it here?

Believe in dreams you love so much,
Let the passion of your hearts make them real
And tell all the ones you love,
Anything and everything you feel.
I laugh about the past.
Secretly, wish we could go back,
And save the child...

As I look around this room,
See the worried eyes I know
It's time I cannot buy
Was this worth the time to rise?
Was this worth the time to rise?

Believe in dreams
I believe in dreams
I believe in dreams
I believe in you

Believe in dreams you love so much,
Let the passion of your hearts make them real
And tell all the ones you love,
Anything and everything you feel
Believe in dreams
Believe dreams"

^^ That song is by Flyleaf, and I think it's one of my new favorite songs. Especially the part I bolded. It makes so much sense for my life right now.

We've been going to Cornerstone for about 10 months now.

I can see very clearly that my parents love it. They've been more involved here in the past ten months than they have been at any other chutch that I remember. Well, actually, not really.. but they enjoy their involvement more here. I can see it in their eyes when they talk about church.. To put it simply: I know this is where God wants them, and that they are glad for that.

As for Sarah, she fits right in. She's found a new best friend in Autumn. Those two are like peas in a pod. And she also babysits half the kids in the church on a regular basis, and everyone loves her here (like everywhere).

The problem is me. I honestly cannot see where I fit in at this church. I just can't... and that bugs me. A lot. Because I can see how amazingly happy the rest of my family is here. And if I don't belong here, at Cornerstone, where do I belong? I honestly haven't felt completely comfortable at a church ever since Creekside and that whole mess, and I'm scared that I never will. But I know it's not just my fear that's preventing me from being comfortable at Cornerstone. There's something else there.. I'm not sure what it is though.

I just have no idea. I really, honestly don't.