I want to be more than mediocre.

I wish I wasn't so selfish in wanting that.

It just that I'm not *really* good at anything. Oh, I'm okay at guitar, at school, at making graphics, at art, at photography, in theology, in friendship, at my job, the list goes on and on. Everything I do is mediocre. I'm not spectacular, I'm not amazing. I'm just another person passing in existence. I am absolutely terrified that I will never amount to anything. And it's all my own fault. Whenever I try to excell at something, I fail. Miserably. And I hate it. But it never changes. I'm always just okay.

*sigh*

I'm so lame.