The Motions - Matthew West

This might hurt, it's not safe
But I know that I've gotta make a change
I don't care if I break,
At least I'll be feeling something
'Cause just okay is not enough
Help me fight through the nothingness of life

I don't wanna go through the motions
I don't wanna go one more day
without Your all consuming passion inside of me
I don't wanna spend my whole life asking,
"What if I had given everything,
instead of going through the motions?"

No regrets, not this time
I'm gonna let my heart defeat my mind
Let Your love make me whole
I think I'm finally feeling something
'Cause just okay is not enough
Help me fight through the nothingness of this life

'Cause I don't wanna go through the motions
I don't wanna go one more day
without Your all consuming passion inside of me
I don't wanna spend my whole life asking,
"What if I had given everything,
instead of going through the motions?"

take me all the way (take me all the way)
take me all the way ('cause I don't wanna go through the motions)
take me all the way (I know I'm finally feeling something real)
take me all the way

I don't wanna go through the motions
I don't wanna go one more day
without Your all consuming passion inside of me
I don't wanna spend my whole life asking,
"What if I had given everything,
instead of going through the motions?"

I don't wanna go through the motions
I don't wanna go one more day
without Your all consuming passion inside of me
I don't wanna spend my whole life asking,
"What if I had given everything,
instead of going through the motions?"

take me all the way (take me all the way)
take me all the way (I don't wanna go, I don't wanna go)
take me all the way (through the motions)
take me all the way

I don't wanna go through the motions

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whoo-ee. long time no blog.

these past couple of weeks have been a whirlwind of work, finishing school, graduations, graduation parties, moving (the church), etc.
and i'm still not even done with school. blah.

everybody's all excited.. planning their summers. getting excited for their trips. planning their packing lists.
and here i am, writing a lame blog about how i'm not doing anything this summer.
i'm so lame.
and it's even lamer that i'm complaining about this again.
but i can't help it. i feel pathetic for not doing anything.
i think i'm going to die being stuck here all summer. =p

i haven't been on the internet much lately.. partly because of business, partly because of disinterest. i haven't updated my quote site in forever. i dunno.. i guess it just seems that the internet is really shallow. everybody is so concerned with putting on these personas.. eh. i dunno. it just bothers me a bit. i mean, some people spend all their free time on the internet. that can't be healthy. although you can build some really great friendships online, those *can't* be the only friendships you have. you need real people. real life. i think we get lost in it. in all the "knowledge" at our fingertips. we forget what really matters. now, don't get me wrong.. the internet is great for a lot of things.. just.. the majority of people misuse it. and it's stupid. there's so much that this world has to offer that's not confined to a computer screen.
anyway.. enough of that.

love. interesting subject.
i think God has been trying to teach me some stuff about love lately. it's been turning up everywhere. for the bible study at church, we're doing "Loving Well" by Beth Moore. last week, i went to a friend's youth group, and the youth pastor spoke on love. i've started doing a personal Bible study, and it turns out that all the books i have are on love. plus a couple other random things..
it can't be a coincidence.
i don't quite know what about love yet.. whether it be that i should be loving others more or loving myself more (which i definitly need to work on both), or something else. but it's just plain weird. hah.

this month has brought the winds of change around here.. it's insane how much things are changing. weird.

i got my hair cut. it looks pretty cute. got a lot of compliments on it today.

yeah.

so.. because i am doing nothing of significance this summer... if any of ya'll wanna come visit me for a couple days.. or want me to come visit you.. let me know. 'cause that'd be rad and i wouldn't feel so lame. and i might be able to convince my parents to let me. hah.


oohh.. and.. my first vlog! =D
hah, i'm a dork..



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