salt in the snow - the classic crime

Give me wings, Give me peace.
These are the things that I need.
I'm tormented, broken and shamed
Are You listening? Are You listening?

Give me shelter from the storm,
I know it's a lot to ask for considering how recent
I've piled the dirt on Your name.
Are You listening? Are You listening?
Are You listening?

I have heard that winter's cold
Will give way to summer's warmth
Oh no, like salt in the snow
I'm melted and left all alone
On the side of the road.

In this where I am for Your sake"
Stuck between sleep and awake?
My mind is dreaming of things
Are You listening? Are You listening?

I took You for granted again
And drew You aside and pretended
For one minute that I had control of my life
And the direction it seemed to be in
I was wrong again, I was wrong again
Are You listening?

I have heard that winter's cold
Will give way to summer's warmth
Oh no, like salt in the snow
I'm melted and left all alone
On the side of the road.

I will wait for You to come again,
And I can't pretend like I'm confident
And I can't pretend like it makes much sense
When it doesn't.

I have heard that winter's cold,
Will give way to summer's warmth.
Oh no, like salt in the snow,
I'm melted and left all alone
On the side of the road.

On the side of the road.
On the side of the road.
On the side of the road.

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[rant]
i was talking with my sister and a guy from church at church tonight, and we were talking about facebook status' and such, and he was laughing at how much my sister updates her status, and so I told him not to be friends with me on facebook - cause i update my status a lot more than she does. and he was like "so, let's see, your mood changes from angry to sad to grumpy to melancholy, right?".
it really pissed me off. like, really.
yes, i am moody sometimes. but i'm allowed to be - i am a teenage girl. and it pissed me off that he pretended to know me so well. ugh.
i mean, i can somewhat understand.. because oftentimes church is what makes me feel the most emoish (not sure why..), so i act emoish. but seriously, just because you don't see my happy side often at church doesn't mean i don't have a happy side. it doesn't mean i'm *always* moody and sad and grumpy.
i hate it when people pretend to know me, but know they don't, and don't even TRY to get to know me. it really pisses me off. i mean, at least make an effort to get to know me before judging me.
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i have been somewhat melancholyish recently though.
i've felt somewhat lost.
i'm not sure what direction i'm going - or should be going for that matter.

work continues to get suckier.
well, not completely. but it's old. very old. i'm not a big fan of working in fastfood.. but there's really no other jobs i can get right now. all the ones i've found you have to be eighteen or over - and i'm nowhere near turing eight.
and the church continues to get smaller (i think we're down to about 60 people total, including kids). which really sucks. because when we first started going here, it was supposed to get bigger. the youth group was supposed to get bigger, not smaller. there was supposed to be life. (there were supposed to be cute teenage boys! xD). but it's not. we keep getting smaller and smaller and i begin to hate it more and more. i don't even want to play guitar for worship team anymore.. i haven't for awhile. ever since they made the cool worship team leader leave.. which, turns out everybody else had problems with him. but i thought he was awesome. stupid people. but.. yeah. they sound better without me anyway. =p

and school is icky. it's not hard or anything.. i just dislike doing it. a lot. i just want to be done completely already. gah. only two more years....


wow. i sound like a whiny brat.
i am a whiny brat.
someone, please slap me. hard.
maybe enough to kill me. that'd be good.