calender marks - my favorite highway

I've fallen victim to my greatest fear
The calendar marks that I lost a whole year
Three-sixty-five, barely alive
Grace took her good natured time to arrive
Oh my God, this year has dealt me a horrible hand
I'll try and explain, but you won't understand
Well wait, what's today's date?
There's plenty of time left to procrastinate, or plan my escape

Let me go
Let me go

The Autumn leaves join in a bittersweet chorus
A hymn so inspired as if to inform us they're leaving soon
She sends a kiss that we just barely miss
Before Winter sets in and exposes our sins

Let me go
Let me go

I want to be where nobody knows me
I'll be behind the perfect disguise
I'll drive away, I'll dissapear
I want to be anywhere, but here

Spring-time, ever changing
My life's re-arranging
So it seems I'm going down now
Tears fall on the ash, my heart's fading fast

Let me go
Let me go

While I wait for the New Year
To introduce new fears
While I'm wishing that I could be
Anywhere, but here

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At the beginning of the year, my motto was "I've decided that this year will be a good year". I find it kinda funny that I chose that for this year, because so far this year has been one of the worst. Don't get me wrong, I've had a lot of good times.. but a lot of things have happened that I wish hadn't. I dunno, maybe it's because I said that. hah. I doubt it, but you never know..

I envy those who always have good things to say. Those who can write paragraphs upon paragraphs and sound smart. I envy those who can be completely honest, and open up to others. I envy those who know what they want to do with their life.

There's so much that I want to be.. but I have no idea how to reach that goal.

It's raining today. Complete cloud cover, cold, dripping..
I love the rain. It's like.. a cleansing of the earth, making everything new. I like that.

it makes me feel like there's a chance. a chance of something new for me.
for everyone.

"it's a bittersweet life... and it's leaving me a-okay.."