the earth falls asleep - abandon kansas

The earth falls asleep much too early for me
I close my eyes but I can't rest
My body is tired my mind is running
From the past to the east to the west
Trying to find the blame
That you've already taken from me

Can anyone tell me how, how we learn to live with ourselves
I've been forgiven of things only God knows, but I can't forgive myself
After all of my searching I found who I am, and its not what I wanted
But I'm here now and I'm broken, come save me from this hell

I am convinced that the world that we see is a curtain
Behind which vast realms await us
Of uncharted marvels and oceans of mercy inside the Father's eyes
And the mountains are grandstands that sheets of blue sky rest upon
Peeled back with ease by Your hands
To reveal a glory I've never dreamed

I want to pay for the things I've done, the people I've hurt
Get what I deserve, but You won't let me
My hope is in the Unseen
Cause I see no hope in me