i wanna say i'll never do it again.. but i can't.

"God, i wish i could hear You.
You said You'd help me through this..
i wish You didn't have to.."-wavorly

this song has been running through my head all day.

to be honest, i've been struggling immensely lately. i guess it's understandable, with all the stress with my parents and sickness and taking care of the house/daycare kids and yadayadayada. and not that i'd let anybody know (because everybody already has enough to be concerned about), but i'm terribly stressed and i've been releasing it in ways that i shouldn't be.

i hate being a good liar.
i don't like being in this tunnel.
and i don't like thinking that i'm finally seeing daylight and then realizing it's actually a train.


"as you did warn me carpenter, this world has weakened my heart.."
- showbread