i don't understand it, really.

how i can trust God so easily with some things, and not at all with others.

for instance, right now i have complete trust in God with the situation about my dad. i know that God's going to take care of it, and my dad will be fine and out of the hospital soon. and it's not hard for me. it's rather easy, really.

but i can't trust God with me. and i don't know why. there's somewhat of a civil war going on inside of me and i can't figure out pretty much anything. i know the way to solve what's going on inside of me is to trust God and to trust others and have honest conversations. but i can't seem to do it. i don't know how.

it's frustrating..