one girl revolution

"Some people see the revolution but most only see the girl
I can lose my hard earned freedom if my fear defines my world
I declare my independence from the critics and their stones
I can find my revolution I can learn to stand alone...
I'll be everything that I want to be
I am confidence in insecurity
I am a voice yet waiting to be heard
I'll shoot the shot, bang, that you hear round the world...
I'm a one girl revolution." - Superchic[k]

"Raise your hand if you’re not another carbon copy
Wannabe like everybody else
Raise up your hand if you got something more to say
Keep on lookin if your lookin for a cookie cutter
I’m here to start a revolution
I’m here to start a one girl revolution
I’m not a perfect ten, paper thin, Hollywood illusion
I thought I told ya, I’m a soldier
And I ain’t leavin’ til the party’s over
One girl revolution." - Saving Jane

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today has just been one of those days.
i feel really fat and ugly and worthless today. and i'm pretty sure it's true. because i am fat... even my mother says so. =p
i had an interview today at the place my sister works.. i got a really strong feeling that the lady didn't like me and was only interviewing me because my sister works there. and i really don't want to work there now.. hah. so i'm not going to. and the two other places i was looking at filled the positions already. lovely.
i'm still a bit behind in school.. mostly in literature. ick. and i have a paper to write too.. ugh. only three weeks though! i'm so ready. so. so. so. ready.
i had to go to the dentist today too, to get a filling. ick. and i have to get two more on monday. double ick. and i'm getting braces at the end of May. not going to enjoy that. (on the other hand though, straight teeth will be nice..)

enough ranting. hah. because although today has been perfectly horrible.. it's reminded me how much i need to change. Which is a lot.. and I'm going to seriously start working on those things.. i'm not just going to say that i'm going to work on them. i'm not going to be in that "in-between" part. i'm tired of being there. tired of being the girl next door.. =p


so..
today was one of my best friend's sixteenth birthdays. happy birthday, robert. =]
strange thing - my two best guy friends both turned sixteen in the same week. how weird is that? hah.