I've realized recently..

.. that I walk a very fine line of thinking I'm totally awesome, and of thinking that I suck at everything.

.. that trusting God with everything makes me feel so much better.

.. that having joy during the tough times is okay.

.. that when the really tough times come along, so do the really good times.

.. that I can have good friends without getting into the really tough inner stuff.

.. that music is truly my escape, and hardcore music is very soothing. xD

.. that I'm tired of living the way I am. this whole purposeful, my fault roller coaster ride isn't the way I want to be.

.. that Nevertheless' song "Sleeping In" is awesome.