... we can be renewed.

i've been reading a lot of blogs lately. watching a lot of videos. reading lots of books.
all in the effort to finally lift myself up and improve myself.

everyone has there own twelve step program. everyone has their own opinion on how to be "better".
i don't want to be better. i want to be understood. i want to love and be loved.

through reading these things, i've determined that i don't care about the front anymore. all i want to do is love God, love others, and love myself. i don't want to go through programs and make up things that i learn.
i want to learn. i want to actually make sense sometimes.

i have issues with comparing myself to others. in everything that i do. everytime i see someone, i instantly compare myself to them. "i suck at this just because they're better than i am" or "they suck at it, so i'm good at it" and other things like that.

i'm tired of doing that. there's always going to be people better than i am and worse than i am. what matters is that Christ is my main focus.

i'm not a good person. everything good i do is in spite of myself.
but i am loved. and that makes me more than worthless.

p.s. yoga is fun.