what do i know of holy?

"What Do I Know of Holy?" by Addison Road is on in the background. there's snow falling outside, and a foot of it on the ground. i'm in my pajamas still, and wrapped in a warm blanket [yuss!].

I've been off of [coughgroundedcough] the internet for a couple days. and i must say it was a good break. it's weird.. it seems like there's this whole other world on the internet that we dive into and rarely come back out of.
i have a few friends that rarely use facebook, and now i think i understand why. it's all fake, it's all just showing people what we want them to see. we can know everything about everyone we know and still know nothing about them at all. the internet never gets past arms length.
it's strange, and it makes me uncomfortable.

on to other things.

this song is on repeat. i can't get enough of it right now.
it makes me feel so small, so miniscule.. but in a good way. often feeling small means feeling worthless and stupid and many other adjectives that i often use to describe myself. but this small is different. this small is a version of awe of the God that created everything. it fits so perfectly into my journey right now. i get arrogant sometimes, thinking that i've tried so hard to be awesome and God's been letting me down, and i often think that i've got it all figured out. but i don't. i'm small, and i know next to nothing. i think that sometimes my arrogance causes me to believe that God fits in my box. He doesn't. He's fire, fury, holy, and beautiful..