what if it's all in my head?

what if all of it is in my head?

i hate that i'm not close to anyone anymore.
no one.
looking back, even when i barely talked to some people, i was still close to them.
and now it's not there anymore.
and it's my own fault.

why am i so mistrusting of people?
life is pain with or without trust, and only bad *and* good can come of trust.


invisible children event tonight.
i'm pretty darn excited.