Chains of Steel - Everfound

Wrapped around in chains of steel
Invisible and yet so real
Cold metal on my skin is all I feel
But I smile, dare not let you see
The truth behind this picture perfect me
I create my own honesty

You call me crazy
It doesn’t change me

Running and running away from myself
I’m trying to
Run and run away from myself
Running and running away from myself
I’m trying to run away from myself

Circuits’ cut my skin is turning white
The blood inside is giving up this fight
These steel chains hold me tight
I tried hard to break myself free
But it’s time to face reality
He’s the only one who has the key

You call me crazy
When you’re just like me

Running and running away from yourself
You're trying to
Run and run away from yourself
Running and running away from yourself
You're trying to run away from yourself

You call me crazy
It doesn’t change me
You call me crazy
When you're just like me
You call me crazy
It doesn't change me
You call me crazy
When you're just like me

Running and running away from ourselves
'Cause I'm just like you
Run and run away from ourselves
Running and running away from ourselves
We're trying to run away from ourselves

Tried hard to break myself free
Until I faced reality
He's the only one who has the key
You tried hard to break yourself free
Until you faced reality
God's only son can set you free

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I love this song. I saw Everfound at an AMAZING concert last night. They're officially *almost* my favorite band. Eleventyseven still has the number one favorite band spot though, that's why they're *almost* my favorite band. =]
The concert last night was just.. wow. One of the funnest, if not the funnest concert I've ever been too. It was a blast. I love being able to go crazy and not care.. and dance and sing at the top of my lungs. I brought the guys in FTGF peanut butter m&m's. They enjoyed that. haha.

This week has been.. not so normal.
My grandmother was diagnosed with stage four pancreatic cancer, and has a year to five years to live.... my family (extended, as well as my parents) is not handling it very well. I'm okay with it though.. it's despratly sad, but I know that Jesus is calling her home, and she'll be carried home by angels.
I found about an awesome music camp called "Camp Electric", and got all psyched, and totally wanted to go. Then I found out how expensive it is ($650 for five days), and that it really isn't as awesome as it sounds. So I'm back to square one about what to do for this summer.
I went ice-skating twice. My still kinda hurt. heh. I watched a hockey game, and enjoyed it. I stayed up really late one night and stared at the stars, and got up really early one morning and watched the sunrise. Then there was the concert, which was amazing.
But the most important thing that has happened since the last time I blogged is this: I (re)dedicated my life to Jesus Christ this morning. It's the most amazing feeling I've ever felt.. even more-so than when I "became a Christian" when I was seven - because when you're seven you don't really know any different. I know the right words to say most of the time - words to make others believe that I'm doing awesome, or I'm really down... and half the time I don't mean them. But I mean this with all my heart. My life belongs to Jesus Christ.

I've been worried about a lot of things this week - but I'm at peace about them. Because I know that Jesus has it all in control. It's comforting - knowing that I don't have to handle it all by myself.

I'm still struggling. I still have moments when I want to get out a knife. I still hurt. But Jesus is always there - and that is more comforting than anything else in this world.

Still looking for a new job. Haven't been able to find one yet... so I dunno about that.
I'm playing guitar on the worship team on Sunday. A bit nervous about that..

Have a fantastic evening.

"I have told you these things so that in Me you may have peace. You will have suffering in this world. Be courageous! I have conquered the world." - John 16:33