calender marks - my favorite highway

I've fallen victim to my greatest fear
The calendar marks that I lost a whole year
Three-sixty-five, barely alive
Grace took her good natured time to arrive
Oh my fod, this year has dealt me a horrible hand
I'll try and explain, but you won't understand
Well wait, what's today's date?
There's plenty of time left to procrastinate, or plan my escape

Let me go
Let me go

The Autumn leaves join in a bittersweet chorus
A hymn so inspired as if to inform us they're leaving soon
She sends a kiss that we just barely miss
Before Winter sets in and exposes our sins

Let me go
Let me go

I want to be where nobody knows me
I'll be behind the perfect disguise
I'll drive away, I'll dissapear
I want to be anywhere, but here

Spring-time, ever changing
My life's re-arranging
So it seems I'm going down now
Tears fall on the ash, my heart's fading fast

Let me go
Let me go

While I wait for the New Year
To introduce new fears
While I'm wishing that I could be
Anywhere, but here

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tonight really hasn't been a very good night.
i had some coffee, and it wasn't even good coffee, which was a mistake. because now i can't sleep.
i cut my finger really bad on the trashcan.. and it hurts uber-bad. all i was doing was putting on the lid, because i was putting the trashcan outside so the trashmen can take it early tomorrow morning, and when i put up the handle to secure the lid, it bit me. =[
and my jeans ripped when i was babysitting at church. not like, knee ripped either. like, the whole pocket on the back ripped off. which was bad. and they were new jeans too.
and right now i have a song stuck in my head. but only one line from the song. and i don't know who it's by. and it's really really bothering me.

on the upside, i did get a really awesome shirt. it says "it's okay, i'm with the band". haha. i think it will be my new concert t-shirt.

eh.

my parents frustrate me a bit. they just do their job, you know, being parents, not friends.. but i sometimes wish it were different. i mean, as long as i keep my grades up, don't swear, don't wear too much makeup, don't draw on myself, and am generally a "good girl", they don't really care what i do. i was talking with a friend the other day and she was talking about how close her and her mom are - and how she tells her mom everything. i can't imagine that. my mom and i aren't close at all.
the other day, i had "love" written on my arm for love is the movement day, and my parents got all pissed off. they said i shouldn't write on myself because it 'doesn't look good' - and they would give me any other reason than that. it frustrates me to no end when people won't give me real reasons for something - especially real reasons about why it's wrong or not.
it seems like lately all my parents have been doing is getting mad at me because i haven't been doing things right, or good enough. maybe it's just the typical teenager-parent relationship.. but it frustrates me. because it seems the harder i try to do better, the worse i do.

random: fanfiction is very creepy.

i have really no plans for this summer, and it makes me sad. because normally i'm doing a bunch of stuff - like missions trips, camp, visiting people, and la-de-dah.. but this year, it's like, caput. i mean, i may go to heavenfest in july if they get some more good bands.. and want to go to warpedtour.. but those both depend on if i can find a concert buddy (because sarah is going to be gone) and on if my parents will let me go / take me. blah.


i think i complain too much.