and i'll have you know, i'm scared to death.

i currently feel like curling up in a little ball, and crying myself to sleep, and then never wake up from sleeping.

i know i shouldn't have done it. it didn't even feel that good.. but i had to try it. i had to.



now i have to go clean my house, oh joys, because my relatives from kansas are coming to stay with us for who knows how long. gah.