i've been jumping from the tops of buildings..

i find it somewhat funny how i was very adamant at the beginning of the year that this year would be a good year. but it hasn't been a good year much at all. in fact, it's been quite the opposite.

"I hurt myself today to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain - the only thing that's real" -NIN

I've been thinking about how different I am in real life then I am here. It's quite a difference.. because although in rl I wear a lot of black and such, I'm normally smiling. While I look hardcore and such, I seem to be a generally happy person. But that's not really how it is.. as any who read this blog can attest. eh. it's not a big deal I suppose.. but it's strange. the people who know most about me are ones who I've never met, or only seen once..

"I have learned now that while those who speak about one’s miseries usually hurt, those who keep silence hurt more." - C.S. Lewis